My idea for this fashion blog started in the summer of last year. My cousin suggested or, I asked her if I could contribute to her Clout magazine blog. So, I started writing. I also thought it was perfect timing because I was starting fashion design at West Valley in the next few months. I was excited that I could provide much more insight into fashion than just my own ideas. Because I would be reading books, talking to teachers that were/are involved in the industry, and collaborating with fellow students with similar aspirations and interests.
It ended up not happening. I forget why. But it’s always like this with me and everything I’m supposedly interested in. I start it with so much enthusiasm, hope, and determination, but eventually I either half-ass my way through it because it becomes too difficult or I just don’t follow through at all. This is especially so with fashion design. I think I’ve signed up for classes twice now and never attended the orientation or the first day of class.
Then, this year, I vowed to learn how to use my sewing machine. My boyfriend bought me one a few years ago for Christmas. I finally got around to it in March. I set up my desk, read the manual, loaded the string, and was ready to get to work. But, soon became discouraged when the string wouldn’t loop properly. I tried a few more times, but eventually the machine was moved to the ground and pushed to the wall, my chair covering it. Our of sight. Out of mind.
There were so many chances for me to get into this thing, but I always quit because there was always something “better” to do or some so-called roadblock in my way.
I think last year I ended up dropping the classes at West Valley because Los Altos High School hired me in August. I figured this was a great opportunity to gain some valuable teaching experience, make some good money, and land a permanent position (they’re the highest paid district in the state).
That ended up not working out, obviously. I’ll probably touch in my other blog. It’s a pretty juicy story.
So, I decided to start up again. My thinking is that instead of jumping in with both feet again and then getting overwhelmed, I’m going to just dip my toes first by starting this blog in hopes that having me talk enough about fashion and having you dear fellow anti-fashionistas (cringe! we have to think of a better word) discuss it with me that I’ll stick with it. Eventually, this can become a real career, a fulfilling hobby, or whatever it is I decide to do with it.
I began writing a few journal entries last month. I have about three or four, but haven’t posted any until now because I wanted to edit them before they go “live.” Maybe it’s the English teacher in me? But in this case, I think that’s just another excuse.
So, I'm going to revise them as much as I can and then just post them. I think this is a great way for me to practice my writing, as well. Something, I as an English teacher, should be doing more often. But, don’t. Also, I’ll get to see my progression as a writer: from horrible in the beginning to, maybe, not too terrible later.
